Tara's gonna show September whose boss!

[Tarz]

Today is September 1st and couldn't come at a better time. Last night i had one of those moments which came when i caught myself in the mirror getting into my pj's. It made me stop and think, i have done a great job since the beginning of the year but i have slacked off so much. At one stage i was going to the gym everyday, eating really well, not drinking much, not smoking much, generally feeling really good about myself but lately i have been really slack with the gym, i went once last week and i think it was over a week before that when i had last gone, i haven't been eating great, yesterday my dinner was a piece of choc cherry torte (left over B'day cake my mum insisted on sending home with me), i have been drinking alot lately and of course i have another 2 bottles of malibu sitting in the cuboard at home and i have been smoking alot. As my habits have been getting worse i have been feeling worse which makes my habits worse and its turned into a bad cycle. I need to do something. I need to do what i was doing at the start of the year and record everything. So i am going to write down all food and all exercise for September and hope like crazy that i stick to it.
Wish me luck because when Summer does get here i don't want to regret that i stopped working hard.

[GoddessInside]

If i was September i'd be asking October to step in, cause I'd be censored scared with the amount of determination that you have !

Go Gurl !

[Tarz]

haha, thanks Helen

Here is today so far and the plan for tonight

Breakfast: Creamy honey oats
snack: hot choc
lunch: toasted cheese ham and tomato sandwich (wholemeal bread and extra light cheese) and a serve of steamed vegies with honey mustard sauce (not as nice as it sounds)
arvo tea: 1/2 a blueberry muffin (welcoming arvo tea for new staff member and i am currently munching on strawberries to distract myself from the rest of the muffins and cakes

Dinner will be 1 mini hamburger (home made) and a banana later on tonight.
Will go to the gym and do 40 minutes cardio plus strength upstairs.

[Tarz]

So far, Tara's not showing September whose boss, so far September is walking all over Tara and spitting on her

I don't wanna write this down but then how am i gonna get back on track?

So yesterday all good till i get home then i consumed the following:
handfull of frozen peas, a piece of choc cherry torte and 2 mini hamburgers plus 2 extra beef patties (in my defence they were small) plus another slice of choc cherry torte (sam cut it for me i couldn't say no...excuses excuses)

And to make it worse i didn't go to the gym

As for today,

Breakfast: creamy honey oats
snack: hot choc and banana (shouldn't have had both but got so tired of what i was doing i needed to do something to wakle me up)
lunch: toasted sandwhich (half a serve of veg but only half becasue those packets of steamed veg you can buy are the most disgusting thing i have ever eaten, definately not havin it tomorrow) and a crunchie

I feel crappy because of how i am eating and need to get it together! I don't understand why i can't get focused again. I don't understand why i seem to be letting myself fall into bad habits. I am lucky in the fact that i am not putting on i am just hovering where i am but that won't be the case for long, if i could get back into it i could lose pretty quickly.

This evening there is a cycle class at 7:30 - i am to go to the gym at 7pm, if i don't go then i will cancel my shopping trip with mum this saturday. I was going shopping to buy new clothes but there is no point in getting new clothes if i can't behave myself.

COME ON TARA! DON'T MAKE ME YELL PROFANITIES AT YOU!

[GoddessInside]

*Smacks September in the head*

You Wanna piece of me PUNK ?!?!!?

Cmon Taraaaa, Don't let that little S.O.B. stand in your way, he'll have me to mess with if he does !

[GoddessInside]

P.S.. Like the way I've put a genger to September

[Tarz]

Haha, Helen. Your a legend for getting my back against September.

Well recap from yesterdays post:
snack in the arvo: apple
dinner: well whilst i was making mini meatloaves (the healthy ones with zucchini, carrot capsicum etc) i consumes half a carrot and half a capsicum so when it came time to have dinner i felt there was no real need to make extra veg so i had two mini meatloaves (they are small!)
dessert: protein shake and one cup of frozen peas
Sam and i argued about what more gross - the fact that a snack to me is frozen peas or the snack that he had, a glasss of skim milk with sugar added to it

And i went to the gym. i nearly didn't, i sat down and said nup not going then i started to feel really guitly and bad so got dressed and went at 7. did a 20 minute warm up walk on the treadmill then the cycle class for 45 minutes, i felt good at the end because of how hard it was but don't know if i will do it again, i don't hate myself enough put myself through that much pain! I can't sit properly today, the seat was so hard!

So far today
Breakfast: creamy honey oats
snack: hot choc
lunch: will be a toasted ham and tomato sandwich and a piece of fruit and i might go by a sugarfree v (apparently there are no cals at all in one and i am just abut falling a sleep)

Ooohhh gotta go my boss wants me. (please be good)

[GoddessInside]

Hell Yea gurl ! I got your back !

*In Karate Kid Stance* Bring It Oooonnnn

[Tarz]

I was picturing more a boxers stance, jumping back and forth with the fists up. Rocky style!

[GoddessInside]

Ok ... if thats wat you want then so be it .... I'll be sitting there with the towels, bucket and mouth guard waiting for you to return after an easy Rd 1 knockout

[candycane]

hi darlin,

1) keep up the exercise. Once your at the gym you aint going to turn around and leave so make sure u bloody well get ur toosh there.

2) your food seems fine. For my steamed veggies i cut up a big bowl and steam them before i leave for work n munch through the day - its a bit smelly but better then the packet ones i think.

3) your muscles get sore when they arent used to being worked - ie, if u up weight on a particular pump track you'll be sore the next day. If it isnt sore, it doesnt mean your not burning calories or working hard, it just means the muscle isnt getting a shock [u prolly already know all this]

4) wedding dress wedding dress summer arms summer leggies BEAACH AND BIKINIS!! [if that isnt enough motivation i dunno what is]

5) i still think ur a machine. When u get your mind to it u totally turn into the terminator, you'll get the fire back you just have to make it all part of the routine.

I love the mini meat loaves they are tasty. Just tell urself that muffins and cakes will never be out of your life, you'll always be able to buy one if u want it (when ur at goal and can afford to eat it) but at the moment you dont want to eat it. And if u do, you better make sure u work it off in the gym

xxx

[Tarz]

Thanks CC

1) keep up the exercise. Once your at the gym you aint going to turn around and leave so make sure u bloody well get ur toosh there.

Thats why today i took my gym stuff to work. If i go straight there i won't have the option to sit down, chat, munch etc I know that i definately will do the work when i get there because i don't want the girls behind the desk say "she just got here and she's leaving?!?!" Getting there is most of the problem. If only there was a gym were i worked, i wouldn't have to do the drive think will i or won't i? will i or won't i?

2) your food seems fine. For my steamed veggies i cut up a big bowl and steam them before i leave for work n munch through the day - its a bit smelly but better then the packet ones i think.

I've thought about that from reading it in your thread but i don't have time in the mornings, i am not a morning person and find it hard to get going in the mornings, as it is i am always 10 minutes late to work when i only live a 10 minutes car ride away!!!! Maybe i could cut some up the night before?

4) wedding dress wedding dress summer arms summer leggies BEAACH AND BIKINIS!! [if that isnt enough motivation i dunno what is]

Definately should help, i am sure once the weather does get warmer and i hop into my swimmers i will go Holy Crap! and run straight to the gym. Nothing can be better motivation then seeing myself in swimmers

[Tarz]

Yesterday from lunch onwards went this way:
Lunch: toasted sandwich
snack: sugarfree V (which i definately needed, i buzzed around like crazy afterwards) and apple
dinner: chicken breast coated in satay seasoning and grilled, boiled vegies (i know i should steam them but sam has banned me from using the steamer because i forgot to check the water level once and destroyed the saucepan )
snack: 3 dimsims, cup full of nutrigrain (not the best snacking food)

went to the gym. Drove straight there from work and didn't give myself a chance to back out. Did 30 min cardio then went upstairs to do strength.

[GoddessInside]

Well done Babe !! That's Awesum !

[hippy_shake]

Good on you!! Getting back into it is the hardest part, then you begin to remember why you loved it in the first place Hope you see some results very soon!