Thanks again everyone
I've been back here for the past 4-5 days, finally. When I said I was going to get partying out of the way for the first month, I didn't think I'd get into it as hard as I have been, and I put on about 4 kg. To me it looked as though I put on more, so I'm guessing alot of it is water weight, and that's proving to be true as all I've done for a few days is eat alot better and drink plenty of water and I've already lost the fist kilogram and am feeling better/looking thinner. I won't feel entirely back on track until I'm under 75.8kg, but it's a good start. I'm lucky that as quickly as I put on weight, it's about as easy and as quick for me to lose it. I generally lose between 1-1.4kgs a week with simply walking every day or so, eating better and drinking lots of water.
I currently weigh 78.7kg, so 2.9kg to go til I'll stop feeling guilty, lol. Then anything I lose beyond that I know I'll start feeling good again. I predict a pretty exciting and happy month ahead because last time I lost those few kilos, I looked alot nicer at around 76kg and started to see what I actually look like, if that makes any sense? It's like im on a sort of boarderline. Plus I was starting to notice alot more loss of fat on my legs and arms which are my problem areas.
I took a video of me in my bedroom last night, because I have problems with knowing what I actually look like (I frequently feel the mirrors and pictures are lying to me) But the video seemed more realistic, which helps alot because I don't look half as bad as I thought I did. I still think that I look worse in person, but it's a start for me.
I have a goal to be 73kg or less by my brothers 20th birthday on the 12th of May
I chose this date because on that date, I was about 80-81kg and I want to at least look better than I did last year! (even though I was pretty stoked that I had lost around 18-20kg at the time) That's roughly 7 weeks away, and doing the math I could be around 71-72 kg, but I'm allowing 73kg because I want to keep a margin of error.
^_^ My birthday proved to me I'm able to pick a date and reach a realistic goal in that time, which was a massive thing to me. So I know I can do it again.
This is what I looked like the day before my birthday party: I was about 75.7-8