Thanks Emmer!!!! Its nice to get some feedback
A big part of this journey for me has been excercise and I know my body fat has gone from 50% @106.4kg to 40% @93kg so ive lost a lot of pure fat, and have put on some muscle too - which has helped with toning up my body shape....
Im having a really really tough time at the moment, excercise is just back on the table now so I plan this week to start the journey back to the daily excercise I was doing before this stooopid thing (still no idea what it was) kicked in - its like starting all over again!!
Life has also been a bit crazy, I had a weekend away with a friend and failed miserably with regards to eating.... Then I got the flu and ate convenience food.... Then I had to fly back to Adelaide at last notice for one night for a job interview - was lucky to eat at all and when I did it was NOT good choices.... and next weekend im off to Sydney for a family long weekend for my dads graduation - this involves wine tasting one day, and nice dinners out - I dont think the places they are planning to go even have healthy options. Plus I dont talk to my family about this stuff and dont feel comfortable doing so so I feel like its 4 days of struggling. Hoping the place we are staying at has a gym.... hope the dizzy thing stays away for good!!!!!!!
How am I supposed to do this??? The people around me seem to be able to eat and live like this and stay at healthy weight, why cant I?? I have been between 90 and 95kg for MONTHS now and just cant seem to get a proper forward momentum again!! I know it is completely my fault, I am responsible for what I eat (the excercise thing has been out of my hands I will admit...) and cant blame anyone else but I just dont know how to keep doing this - I feel like I eat like a rabbit a lot of the time, and I love eating healthy - but my work place is sooo stressful right now (hence why I am looking for a new job) and I live alone and have no friends in the town where I live and just cant be stuffed cooking all the time!!!
Im at my wits end, I have no intention of giving up but I am struggling so much. This is a lifestyle change for me and it needs to be something that I can do forever but after only 6 months I am struggling!!
Plus looking to the future it is very likely that I will have another job related move this year - and I always find packing and moving to be a hard time with eating and excerise... looking forward it just kind of feels hopeless.
There are some boot camp classes starting up again at work soon so hopefully that will get me back in the routine....