i suppose i should start at the start.
my weight problems began 4 1/2 years ago when i failed to lose the last 12kgs i gained after my pregnancy. my pre-pregnancy weight was 68kg, 90kg when heavily pregnant, and post-pregnancy weight was 80kg.
i managed to maintain 80kg till i got married 18 months later - in late 2007. a couple of days after the wedding my husband, son and i moved from country victoria to kalgoorlie in western australia for my husbands work, which was 3000kms from my family. to say i struggled would be an understatement!!! i'm one of 12 kids so being on the other side of the country and with my husband away 3 nights out of the week, the loneliness was unbearable. so we had planned a little holiday back to see the family 3 months after we married...i missed them sooooo much!
the day before we were flying back for our holiday we bought some scales because my husband and i were both feeling a little chubbier and were curious to see where we were with our weight. we had both gained 12kgs!!!!!!!!!! in 3 months!!!! so i was now 92kgs. i spent the rest of the day crying....i just couldn't believe it
i still remember walking in my parents front door and seeing the look on their faces
i was so incredibly embarrassed. i could tell no one new what to say or where to look. it makes me really upset just thinking about it.
i continued to struggle for the next couple of years yo-yoing between 97kgs and 83kgs. i've been up and down so many times i lost count a loooong time ago.
then in feb 2010 we moved back to the vic/nsw border (only 2 hrs from the family
). moving was a HUGE effort!!! but we managed and my husband and i came home weighing...him 96kgs...and me 89kgs. then within 6 weeks of us being back i lost 12kgs!!! i was 77kgs!! i was so happy but the family was a little concerned that it happened so rapidly and suggested i see a doctor...personally i didn't see what the big deal was and was actually a little upset that they weren't happy for me. my mum had also mentioned that i always sounded out of breath on the phone and that it was like i was a little bit hyperactive. so in late april i went to see the doctor and found out that i had graves disease or hyperthyroidism. i was gutted but it explained alot of what i was experiencing...weight loss, inability to conceive, breathlessness, increased heartrate etc. my thyroid hormone levels were 7 times what was considered to be the normal range. and i bought a heartrate watch to check it whenever i felt light-headed or out of breath...and one day while towel drying my hair after a shower my heartrate was up to 160bpm!!! so no wonder i lost all that weight so quickly!
anyway here we are, 18 months later. my weight has fluctuated between 83kgs and 76kgs in that time but has mostly been around the 80kg mark. but since the beginning of august my weight got up to 83kgs which was ok...until it has gone up and up and up to now being 87kgs!!! im really not sure how it has happened...i have done nothing differently
im not eating more, im not moving less....i don't know. all i know is i swore it would never get out of hand again and i feel that it now has. im ashamed
so im currently 87kgs and my goal weight is 70kgs. i want it off once and for all!!! i don't want to be constantly thinking about my weight and how horrible i look. so i would really appreciate lots of help and support now and during my weightloss efforts