From 126kg to 84kg then back up to 122.9kg Ive pretty much done it all even lapband surgery? (that ones a long story... lets just say Im here again and slowly creeping back down.
Week 4 into my program Ive managed to loose 6.1kg... below is where we began the "journey".. sorry I know cheesy word.. but here it is
Start weight... 122.9kg eekkk
week one lost 3kg
week two lost 1.3
week three lost 700g "sigh"
week four lost 1.2kg
Weekly weigh ins are on Saturday and so heres hoping for a good result.
Thankyou to those who on other threads that have been wonderful and supportive in the past few weeks its been a really big help with the "mental process" of this battle.
Ive had to stop and think about why Im this big? Ive found that I have a good "blocking out" talent in my brain that can shut off and just go for it... Not really thinking about the effects that fried what ever may be doing to my body....
Things have changed in the past 2 years that have opened my eyes! made me see that this is the only body I have (unless science is willing to trade me a new one...



Im blessed to have a husband who has always loved me for me big, bigger or smaller.... so I have never felt the need to do it for anyone but me.
1 month in and Im ok. No ones really noticed a big change yet, that sucks! not even me to tell you the truth! I feel the same as i did 4 weeks ago, I dont think Ive changed a lot and most things are still pretty much fitting as they were. Im thinking it takes much longer like last time. It took me to get to about 98kg before i was feeling different as Ive always been way over 100kg..
I know its not about fitting into anything, well for me its not this time around as it always has been in the past, so I will keep plotting along and get to the turn around point, you know the day where you look back and go WOW~ Ive finally lost it, i dont know where its gone and I have no plans to go find it either? and if it does start to slowly visit again I will not let it visit that long..
Thats the big mistake ive always made. Getting it off and then letting it come back in 20kg lots! NO... I have to just keep on top of it. I get it now its about lifestyle changes not a quick fix any more.
So here I go once more
