My name is Emma and I'm a new member.
I'll admit I've been lurking for quite a while, but I finally bit the bullet and joined!
I'm 21 and can't remember a time when I felt good about my body.
I've always been the biggest of my friends (both taller and wider) and you can bet in any room my brain is working out if I'm the biggest.
Even when I was in high school and i was actually quite a healthy size, I'd always felt insecure.
And like so many others I find that the best thing to comfort me is food!
At the end of high school I started to really put on so I joined Weight Watchers. It worked for me and I lost probably 8 kilos...
For the next couple of years I yo-yo'd but kept it somewhat under control. Then last year I got a full time office job... and on came 10 kilos.
I'm currently at my biggest and on orders from the doctor to lose a a good 7 of kgs, but to be honest I'd like to lose more.
I just want to be HAPPY with the way I look for once. If I see two people looking in my direction and talking, I assume they're saying I'm fat. I stand in the lift with my co-workers and just KNOW that they think I'm a giant next to them. My gorgeous boyfriend in slim as a rake and I can just imagine what people think when they see us together. I don't always want to be that odd one out...
We went to the snow in July and I had to get on the scales for my skis... I did it while no one was around except the shopkeeper. And I literally saw his eyes pop out of his head when he saw my weight! I'm not massively overweight, but it's enough to have a huge impact on my life.
On my own, I've already lost maybe 4kilos, but each week it changes. I'm trying to stick to my weight watchers points (without meetings... I know cheap, but I don't have the time) but the problem is when I get home! My dad is an excellent cook and is forever making rich meals to which he takes offence if I don't eat them!
So I've also ordered 14 Lite n Easy dinners so that I can now say "Sorry dad, I have to eat my frozen dinner" without hurting his feelings..
Anyway! That was a really long winded post - sorry!!
I just wanted to drop by and say hi. I know so well how supportive you guys are from lurking for the last couple of months.