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modernchild wrote:i was sitting and thinking about this site while i worked (i work from home-so all i do is work! )
Anyway the more i thought the more i felt i need to get all of this off my chest.
Please forgive my ramblings...
i am overweight, i know i am but at times i just don't see it.
IF i look in the mirror it is from afar and i don't linger looking its a quick look and then i'm gone.
We have built in wardrobes in our bedroom with sliding mirrored doors, i push the door closest to me away so i can not see myself.
I don't go out much, i hate social gatherings as i know people are commenting on my size.
i cut out all tags on my clothes so no one sees what size i take.
i don't have photos taken and if there is a photo of me i can't bear to look at it.
I eat in secret, mostly when my husband goes to bed so he sees nothing.
I know what i weigh and it horrifies me but i think to myself 'well at least its not xxx' which is 10kgs heavier.
I can't even in here write down what i weigh-i am ashamed.
That was so hard to write.
It is a beginning though.
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