I decided that it's time to stop trying to deal with everything myself and to come and get some support in losing weight.
I have had the worse year of my life, breaking up with my long term (5 years) partner, meeting someone else only to be hurt, having all my friends walk out on me, amongst a lot of other crap. It doesn't sound as bad when I summarise it like that, lol.
When I was 18 I was a size 10-12, I weighed 65kg (which was a little bit underweight for me), I had a 12DD bra size and I was fit and happy with myself.
I always wanted to join the police force, but i didn't have my license whenh i finished year 12, so I went to uni instead to get a degree before I joined up. But with uni comes a lot of sitting around. Because I was always studying I found myself getting hungry more often. I would have breakfast at 7am, then by 10am I was starving again so I would go get chips and gravby, then lunch time at 12 I would get schnitzel chips and gravy, then about 3pm I would eat again and then come home and have a huge tea. Hence why in 6 months I put on 20kg. I started getting depressed and I felt because I couldn't control my weight I was a failure at everything else and I started failing uni and just gave up.
I hvaen't put on any weight since then, but I haven't lost any either (I'm 21 now). I've lost in inches, but not in kilos.
I am so addicted to junk food. If I don't have takeaway at least once a day I get angry and grumpy and really moody. I try to give it up, but the cravings are just so bad. I've told my friends not to let me buy takeaway, but when im craving it, I have to have it and i get grumpy towards them until they let me have it (I sound like a spoiled little brat). I try to eat healthy. My mum makes great meals, but after tea I will still go out and get McDonalds.
I know that I don't need the food, because I'm not even hungry when i eat it, I just have to eat it.
I pretend that my weight doesn't bother me because I don't want people thinking I'm weak, so I laugh it off all teh time.
In saying that, I'm not really that big. I'm a size 16 in pants (I do have a big bum and big legs). I have a stomach (don't we all) and a size 14F bra (which is really bad on my back).
I really need help to lose some weight and tone up so I can get the career I've always wanted and so I can be happy.
I'm hoping that if I start taking meal replacements for lunch I will eventually stop going and getting maccas. Quitting cold turkey isn't good for me, it just makes the cravings worse.
I hope that I can find support from you guys, and offer some support back.
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1st mini Goal: 80kg by christmas