Hi Jessica, welcome aboard
You CAN do this! It sounds like you just need some support and motivation which I promise this forum will give you!
I see you have a ticker which is great
Something that I have found to be working for me is to treat myself to non food related presents when I do well.
So maybe what you could do to help you become motivated is to set a small goal for yourself. Like maybe after you lose your 1st kilo you could buy yourself a bridal magazine and look at all the dresses you might like to wear on your big day.
Make your treats better as your goals increase. At 5kgs it might be a new haircut etc.
I think a great way to start with exercise is to join some sort of group. I highly recommend curves. I've only just started. It is a fitness circuit type workout that you take at your own speed. There are women there of all shapes, sizes and ages, no mirrors and no men! They play fast music to keep you pumped up, they take your weight, measurements and body fat % once a month so you can see your progress.
Ease yourself into it. Start with a 5 minute walk tomorrow and then slowly increase it. Do some exercises infront of the telly such as star jumps, crunches, ladies push ups etc. You will soon feel great from exercising and seeing results!
Your goal is doable! You may find that to start with you lose 2kgs a week, then 1 a week and as you get close to your goal weight, 1/2kg a week.
Check out some before and after photos, they're really inspiring!
Good luck on your new journey, you can do this and we will all be here for you!
Saying goodbye to calorie counting AND scales for a while.
Just enjoying the new and improved healthy me and embracing my new lifestyle!