I'm 18 and, you guessed it, overweight.
On the outside I don't look that overweight, but I'm 5"7 and weight around 90kg. I almost cried when I looked at the scale. I fit into a women's size 16.
A couple of years ago I had severe depression and social anxiety, so I was put on medications (setraline and quetiapine). Both have a side effect of weight gain. But am I just making excuses?
When im in public, I feel that people are looking at me thinking "look at that fat girl sitting there". I feel even worse when Im eating in public.
Over the last year I basically let myself go. My mother would often comment on my weight, I would just accept it, then cry when I was alone.
Today was the last straw. I was at my grandmothers house, just as we were leaving, she was telling me she was proud that I got into University, then she basically told me to stop eating (in different, more hurtful words). I was shocked. I just smiled and we left. Then I got into the car and my mum asked what was wrong, and I just burst into tears. I just wanted to rip the fat off me.
Mum was supportive though, she said she would say I was "fat", that Id just gained quite a few kilos. She offered to sign me up to weight watchers to help, but I said no. We decided that I should go see my doctor again, so im booking that tomorrow.
Sorry that I have ranted on, I felt like I needed to get that out of me. I just need support and help to fight the weight.
According to the BMI calculator, my BMI is 30, which means I am obese, but I know i'm not.
Thanks for reading this