Hello! I am new here and just thought i'd share my story.
I am currently 77kg. I have lost 7.5kg since January this year. I am 174cm tall. I am currently on Duromine to help with my sugar cravings. I haven't been on that many types of diets but i have done the shakes and low carb. I eat relatively healthy but the main problem i have is my love of chocolate and sweets and when i am stressed i would eat and throw up. (sorry if that is gross)
I have a blood disorder that affects my iron and i also have insulin resistance so i have to watch my sugar and carb intake (which is hard especially since Chocolate is my God) and i suffered severe bouts of depression when i was younger.
I grew up always thinking i was fat because i weighed more than everyone at my school.
I have always had low self esteem and have never had any friends and i always thought i was ugly and unfeminine. But in reality i wasn't fat at all i am just taller than a lot of people and therefore weigh more. Because i thought i was fat, i ate like a fat person and when i finished high school i was 75kg and I started binging and purging (but i didn't think i was bulimic because i only ever threw up the bad stuff i ate and i wasn't thin.)
Over 2 years i climbed to 85kg because i lived a very unhealthy life (lots of drinking and partying and purging)
Then from depression and "bad stuff" happening in my life i started taking speed and drugs and stopped eating and i lost 10 kilos. (sorry if my drug taking offends people. I don't take drugs anymore.)
Then i stopped taking drugs and went back up to 85kg (substitued drugs for food and purging)
I got rid of all my toxic friends and started walking 45 minutes a day, cut out junk food (like McDonalds etc) but still ate chocolate and i got down to about 69kg!
Then i moved in with my then fiance and then over a year i put on 7kg.
So i started running and eating healthy, (still eating a chocolate bar a day) and i got down to 66kg.
Then i got married and over 3 years got back up to 85kg! But am getting there and am currently about 77kg.
So the lessons i have learned:
1. Excerise and healthy eating is the key! Every time i have put on weight it is because i have stopped exercising and eaten too much rubbish. This may sound obvious, but for years as soon as i reached my "goal weight to be in the 60's" i stopped exercising and started eating all the wrong foods because i thought i was thin and was allowed. Maintenance is important!
2. Ditching "toxic" situations is important to change and cleanse your lifestyle!I found when i got rid of the poisonous people in my life and the dangerous situations i was in this helped me to avoid emotional eating.
3. Exercise = Happiness. I love starting my work days with a good cardio work out. It puts me in a good mood and makes me feel happy.
4. Planning your day is imperative: I am currently having time off from work whilst i wait to start my new job. I have found that i am so out of routine that i haven't exercised at all! I thought because i have the whole day to exercise, i've ended up doing nothing! Usually i get up with husband and exercise before work. It's important to plan your day ahead and schedule time for when you are going to exercise, and what and when you are going to eat. If you know your routine is going to change (ie you may have a work lunch meeting, or a be working late or have a day off etc) be prepared!
5. Love yourself and the person you are, because at the end of the day, thinness does not equate to happiness. What's important is our mental and physical health and what we believe to be true about ourselves.
Any way just thought i'd share my story in case it helps anyone. I am a happier person now and even though life is far from perfect at the moment, i feel strong and able to cope.