My name is Clare and I am from Melbourne. I have joined this forum as I need to stop denying my weight problem and face it head on...and I need any help I can get! I went shopping today to get something to wear to an upcoming function and it was so depressing
Nothing fit me - even some of the size 22's were snug. As I stood in front of the change room mirror I said to myself, "this is it - no more".
About 4 years ago, I lost over 30 kilos. I did it by myself by just counting my daily calories and walking most days. After I got to about 78 kilos, the weight stopped coming off. I lost my motivation and went back to my old eating habits and stopped walking and over the next few years I put back on all of the weight that I lost plus about another 15 kgs. I am so angry at myself for putting the weight back on. It happened so fast!
I am sick of feeling tired and unwell. I am sick of looking the way I look. I have lost my confidence and spark. I try to avoid anything social. I am so far from my authentic self that I don't even recognise myself anymore.
I know how to lose weight - I have done it before. I have a real fear that I won't be able to do it again. I have tried SO many times and failed SO many times, I am almost scared to make another attempt. But I have to - as I said earlier, I can't go on like this for another day.
I will count my calories again - starting tomorrow. And I will go for a 30 minute walk most days.
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired - I want my to reclaim my life!