I've decided that it's time to drop the kg's. I'm weighing in at 115kg, with a goal weight of 65kg - yes 50kg to lose!
I've never been slender - always on the larger side. I did lose 25kg a few years ago but i've put 15kg back on.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me for who I am, and friends and family that I cherish, a thriving career and lots of plans for the future. It's horrible waking every day finding that I have no clothing to wear, as everything is too small! My weight has clouded by self esteem, my ability to enjoy life and consumes my thoughts.
I'm studying nutrition of all things, yet I can't even put my knowledge into practice!....I use food as an emotional "filler"....when something upsets me, I turn to food, it always becomes my comfort and I lose all sense of self control!
I tried thinking back to my childhood and I pinpointed that as a toddler, I was "normal"...but soon after (7-10years) the weight started piling on. You see, that's when I encountered sexual abuse and I never shared this with anyone, not even my parents until I was 27 years old, as i was very upset that people were concerned about the dying abuser - HA! He died of testicular cancer!....Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that people don't get fat because they love food, it's because there are deeper issues at heart. I believe that sharing my story will help me let go, and remove food from my emotional equation.
I've listed some rewards for each 5kg loss:
5kg Haircut & pedicure
10kg New outfit
20kg Salsa class
25kg Dress & heels
30kg New jeans
35kg High heeled boots
40kg New ski pants and jacket (snow skiing)
45kg New outfit for birthday
50kg HOLIDAY & LINGERIE
Wishing you all the best in your challenges and accomplishments - everyone is entitled to their own piece of happiness