electrongirl - thanks for all your support in this and my support system isnt very strong as we moved to a new city just before i put on most of the weight which is probably another factor in how it got here because i didnt know anyone here and just had my fiance so i wasn't going out all the time and sorta feeling a bit lonely (but not too lonely coz i have him of course!
) but im doing really well lately and since starting this weight loss plan and recording my weight changes and making a calendar with a todo list on each day of what to eat and exercises and how long for i feel really good everytime i tick one of those boxes and it just keeps me reminded every day, just another way to keep me on the right track a motivated. but i've lost a bit of weight and its already making me feel better psychologically and i got to talk to my fiance on the phone the other day and he could tell i was more cheerful and as soon as i hit my 10kg marker i will buy myself a new outfit and go out with a new friend ive met.
gordz - thanks! yes its finally all in place and im making progress. i only use the vanilla milkshakes on the optifast and use three a day (so one box lasts me a week) and i actually feel really good because i eat my bowl of veges (sometimes with Kraft Vegie Pourover to make it less bland) at dinner time which is when i sometimes used to binge as well as a banana in the afternoon which is another terrible food time so i havent been feeling hungry at all because im filling myself up with healthy low calorie foods when im usually hungry and sticking to the optifast plan. i hope you do really well on the optislim diet!
magicgirl79 - thanks for the congrats, yeah its been a struggle and im really glad im making some progress and i think thats the most motivating thing in all of this is seeing that number on the scales get lower and lower!! and i didnt notice i was only 300g away from it! yeah its definately a positive and this forum has definately helped and i hope i can help keep other people motivated as well!
bigbasil - i totally understand where you are coming from, i understand that he loves me for me, i never said that he didnt but i did mention that hes just tired of me being depressed because im so overweight and not feeling confident in going out because i feel disgusting in my clothes (i used to be such a fashion obsessed girl) and because im not confident like i used to be and feeling more and more self conscious thats whats causing me to push him away and is really make him fed up. i get exactly what you mean and that is definately my problem - but i know that i will never ever feel comfortable or confident like i used to be until i lose this weight and he knows it and i know it so im just trying my hardest while he's away (so this issue isn't shoved in his face all the time) to lose the weight and get myself together so i can focus on more important things in life and focus more on our relationship again and be happier again which i know will help the relationship because i wont be too shy to go out with him all the time and spend time with him no matter where we go or who we meet up with. and i agree my fiance is definately not into the stick thin girls and likes to see a bit of curve in the right places, thats what makes a woman, so im definately not going to lose TOO much weight - thanks for your 2c!
hope everyone is doing well in their weight loss battles! keep working hard!