Hello I'm new here and kinda shy. This is my story:
I've yo yo dieted since I was around 14 yo, I'm now 43 yo, married and 2 teenage children. I've tried almost every diet known to man, and even some that aren't! When I was 16 my mum took me to a dietician, who proceeded to put me on a range of medication, which worked but only for the short term. I then tried Weight Watchers, but found the weekly weigh-in in front of everyone else embarrassing and degrading. I have now joined Jenny Craig but finding it tough going, physically, mentally and emotionally. I also suffer from depression, a low self esteem and really negative body image. When I weigh in each week, and I've lost weight, I'm on top of the world, but when I weigh in and I've GAINED weight, no matter how small, I tend to spiral out of control, and beat myself up terribly. I've had a really bad week, having GAINED 1.6 kg last week, and I wasn't impressed. I'm walking like mad, drinking buckets of water, and eating the food my consultant gives me, as well as lots of salad, and I STILL gain weight. I started my program at 123.2 kg, and am now at 116.9, but it fluctuates from week to week.
I was almost ready to not just give up my program last Wed, but also to kill myself I was so damn depressed. I have a wonderful husband who is incredibly supportive, and although he tries, I make it damn hard for him. My ultimate goal on the Jenny Craig program is to get to at least 65kg, even though medical charts tell me my ideal weight for my height (5'1") is between 50-55kg.
I'm frustrated and angry with myself
and desperately need all the support I can get. Please help me.........Thanx N xox