I used to be a member here a LONGGGG time ago, and have since gained another 30+ kgs which I am feeling absolutely dreadful about!
I am a 19 year old girl, currently weighing 98kgs.
Last week I weighed in at my heaviest which was 100.6kgs and i VOW never to be that weight again!!
I have a 3 year old horse, who I want to start riding by the end of the year and I just dont think it would be fair of me to get on her at the weight I am.
I do hold my weight well, and people have trouble believing that I am actually considered OBESE.
I feel horrible in my self at the moment, but that may have a lot to do with my life and where I am at at the moment.
I have just come out of a 4 month, intense, physically and emotionally abusive relationship. In that relationship I lost well over 10kgs, as my partner was solely relying on my earnings to continue his drug habit, and I willingly obliged, being love-struck that i was.
Before him I was with a partner for 4 years, who was very harsh, and was continually telling me how ugly and useless I was. Hence falling for the next boyfriend so hard and fast. I truely believed he loved me. He cheated on me with my best mate, but I have since forgiven him and we are now good friends.
Now Im stuck in that 'single' rutt again and feeling quite ugly and useless myself. I feel losing weight will help me with my emotional issues as well.
HEAVIEST WEIGHT - 100.6kgs
CURRENT WEIGHT - 98.0kgs
FIRST GOAL - 89.0kgs
OVERALL GOAL - 75.0kgs