Congrats on your weight loss to date, that's awesome. You must feel great, i find i get less asthma when i am eating right and exercising too. I bet we could even get rid of our asthma if we kept going.
It is overwhelming to have heaps of weight to lose, but it's like ... what do you do? Remain defeated and keep gaining weight each year, or try your best to change your life? You are better off trying, even with crap weeks, disappointing weigh ins, cheat meals. At least you are doing something to help you get to where you want to be.
I can't go without chocolate, i switched to dark chocolate. 70% cocoa. I usually eat a square a day. At first i hated dark chocolate, then i started to enjoy it. I get the lindt one. There's about 10 squares in a block? So it's not a tiny square. Or i eat a chocolate bubble bar from Aldi... it's like an LCM .. about 80 cals, 14g carbs, 50mg sodium, and 2.1g fat in a 20g bar. They aren't that bad for you but i wouldn't have them every day, i just eat them sometimes when i need that sugar / chocolate hit. $1.99 for a 6pk box. You might hate them lol so don't take my word for it! Everything starts to taste pretty good to me once i've been without junk for a while.
I can sooo relate with "coming out" as a fat person! lol. I never tell anyone my weight, or that i am dieting. I have told my mother i am dieting this time, but she still doesn't know my weight. Maybe one day when i am at goal i will be willing to tell her what i started as.
Sorry for my rant lol. Best of luck with everything and i hope to see you around the forums!