I have to be honest, writing this makes me really nervous, but if I dont do it now I never will.
I am new, and looking for people to talk to on my weightloss journey, and hoping to finish it this time
I am 24, 170cm and weigh 112kg. The sadest part for me is that I wear larger sized clothes than my mother who is also overweight. For many many years I have had my parents constantly telling me I need to lose weight, even though they are much much much larger than me (my dad is i think about 6ft 3 and i cant get my arms around his stomach, so no idea how much he weighs). This is very hurtful when people who are larger than you tell you that you are so overweight!
For as many years as I cant remember my extended and immediate family have been telling me im unhealthy and overweight, and my dad has said to ALL of my boyfriends (including my current boyfriend of 3 years) that in order to date me you need to be deaf, dumb and BLIND because why would you want to see something this disgusting everyday - his actual words! To add insult to injury, I cannot go clothes shopping because if I do ever buy clothes or take someone (except my boyfriend now, because he loves me) they always tell me that I need to pull down my shirt, up my pants and stop showing off my horrible stomach because it makes everyone sick, mind you my clothes are some of the most conservative I have ever seen.
So as you can tell, the self esteem doesnt exist... at all!
I have tried counselling and they never deal with the weight issues. And in this battle I dont want to tell anyone because if I ever do all they do is put me down!. So I am battling this with my boyfriend who is also trying to lose weight, we are keeping each other motivated to walk as many days as possible, eating healthy things, and since we started we have not been to a fast food outlet! so very proud of that.
I am joining this forum because I could really use the guidance, extra motivation and somebody to talk to!