I'm Elle . . I'm 32 . . I have 3 children . . a loving partner . . and I am grossly overweight
according to my BMI I am now morbidly obese and I just can't believe that I have got to this point !!
I have never been a small person but I have always been rather fit through playing sport and walking and running.
Over 2 years ago I split from my ex-husband and I began to grow . . my clothes all seemed to shrink overnight . . now I am finding myself going into shops (for larger women) and still not finding something that fits and looks ok . . . now that is depressing !!!
But now I am in a good place !! I have 3 beautiful girls, 7, 5 and 2 . . and the MOST wonderful man who loves me no matter what !! but I find I am still in the same old routine of eat whatever when ever I want ! I think it is going to make me feel better but yet it does not !! Actually it ALWAYS makes me feel worse !! I feel sick afterwards and I feel OH SO GUILTY !!
It needs to stop now !! I can feel the rolls of my stomach, I can feel the double chin, I can feel the fat arms that don't fit into clothes yet look damn awful uncovered !!!
I AM OVER IT !! I need change . . . and I need change now !!
I need to get out of these habits that I have grown accustomed to and I need to stay strong and not find myself at the take away shop at morning tea time because I need a fat rush !!! I need to get of my big fat lazy behind and make the changes that need making !!
So . . . .
Here I am !! I'm going to need help because I know that without it, as all the times before, I will make up an excuse and eat, and eat, and eat !!! and I just don't want to be like this any more !!
So please, if you can, say hi
and if you feel you can help me in anyway you can !!
I want to thank you all now !!!