Hi there, my name is Linda. I am a 41 year old single mother of 2 kids B16 and G11. I work full-time, and trying to keep stuff in order. I am 130kg, 165cm tall and am so unhappy that I have let myself get like this. I eat for comfort and especially at night when the kids are in bed as I don't sleep well, so just raid the cupboard. I am totally disgusted with what I am doing. A little bit more about me is that I came out of a violent relationship a few years ago which my ex was also a drug addict. And due to this relationship used food for comfort as it was the only thing which gave me any comfort. Then 4 months after the seperation the town I live in, was devastated by the Black saturday bushfires. In the weeks post this event I again found comfort in food.
I am now pre diabetic and have a high blood pressure. I had lap band surgery in July 2009, which has not worked. As I am by myself I find it so hard to push myself to diet and exercise. My daily routine also makes it so hard to get out as I am out at 7am and home at 5pm mon-fri, and by the time I have arranged dinner, dishes, clothes for the next day it will be 9 at night and I am totally buggered, but I then I am lucky to sleep 2-4 hours in the night due to nightmares and I have PTSD.
I want to find a special someone but know my weight issues hold me back, and before you say "it doesn't matter what you look like", thats a crock, and some people will tell you and be very crude.
I am desperate for someone to help me I am at my wits end, to lose the weight. I don't know if anybody out there can give me any tips, I don't know where to start. I want to live for my kids and know if I don't do something sooner rather than later, it might be too late.
Can anybody help me? Any tips would be appreciated.
Thanks for your time.