i've just discovered this forum and am hoping it will be something to help me get to the next phase. I watched this tv show the other night about an extreme weight loss where this american woman who was 456 pounds lost 201 pounds over the course of a year. Now she had a personal trainer/coach type dude and a nanny for a time to help her with her kids, but the short story is, that over 12 months she actually lost almost half her body weight. A few years ago I lost 20kg over the course of a year, but now i've put it all back on of course, but at that time I was eating healthier and exercising lots, i joined a cross country running club and did funs runs and stuff - even though i was amost always last I kept it up for a while until I got sick and stopped - henc eputting the weight back on - but that was just an excuse really - the real thing is that i'm a lazy bones, and i love the taste of food!
i have had weight issues all of my life and i'm trying to work it all out - the science and psychology behind it all, and whenever I analyse it I come up with all these amazing theories and reasons why it is what it is, but when it comes to actually doing something about it, it seems like i'm two different people, i can have all the theories in the world but putting them into practice is where i always come unstuck!!
I know though, that I have will power, to an extent because i've done stuff before and managed to keep it going for a while, but then i revert back to the way it's always been.
After I lost the 20kg in 2008/09, i felt so strong, that i could do anything, I was running, I was eating well, and I was living life - but then you know, you let your guard down a bit and it all gets a bit too difficult.
Somewhere in the years since I discovered a shop that sold the most amazing cream buns you have ever tasted in your life. I mean they were 'IT' - the bun so soft and squishy, and the cream so fresh and sweet, i could not help myself. I don't even know why I stopped in at this shop one day, because it really wasn't my usual route, but anyway, I did. Well the next week, I went back ... and again, and again, and again, before I knew it i'd stop in there a couple of times a week, and not only buy 1, but i'd buy 2 cream buns - and eat them both before I got to work, 1 because they were so yummy, and 2 because i was so embarrassed that i didn't want any of my work colleagues to see me eating them. I had this whole 'angel' vs 'devil' thing going on in myself - but the 'devil' side always won out! UNTIL about this time last year, and i stopped in at the shop to buy a cream bun (or 2) and a couple of times previously they hadn't been quite so fresh, or quite so squishy, but I persevered ... scoff them I did ... and this went on for a little bit, but after i'd had the same sort of experience about 3 or 4 times, i began to re-think my cream bun obsession and i decided i was not going to have a cream bun anymore. So I am almost up to my 1 year anniversary of not having a cream bun that it makes me realise that I CAN do this if i really put my mind to it. I mean, I was so addicted to those things, you would not believe it, ok, so theoretically i've probably replaced them with other yummy stuff, but the point is I was so totally addicted to those particular things I actually had a grieving period when I realised that I would never ever be able to have another one again.
SO... onward and upward as they say, and I can now talk about it all without too much embarrassment, but i'm pretty pelased with myself, enough so, that i've decided to embark on a journey to see what I can achieve when I set my mind to it.
Realisitically, according to the experts, I probably need to lose half my weight to be the right weight for my frame (i'm only 5 foot 1) which is only 59kg ... I don't ever remember being that weight, but I guess I was at some point on the way up ... maybe high school?? ok, so 2kg per year since high school doesn't sound unreasonable if it actually happened that way, but it didn't just creep on like that, i've been strugginling with it forever!
I've got a little bit of a plan, and have commenced on phase 1 of my journey - just 6kg, in 9 weeks - doesn't sound unreasonable - fairly steady I'd think given everything i already know, but i'm planning to do this as a scientific experiment and now i've posted on here, i need to be accountable to continue, oh, I hope I can do it ... please cross your fingers for me???!! the scales are telling me i've lost 1.5kg already, but they can't be right - Tuesday will be the official weigh in day as that's the day I started, but i'm thinking maybe my scales were crooked when I did the official reading on Tuesday - or maybe I'd just had lots of water to get rid of!! Because of that little event, i'm now looking into sodium quantities etc and as I am certain I have a salt addiction (and probably a sugar addiction too!!), i need to consider all of those factors before I stuff my face ... hmm, very tricky this weight loss thing, but I am determined to work it out ...
oh my goodness, this seems to have turned into war and peace, so perhaps i'll continue this next time ...
trying to stop the yo-yo!!!