Welcome to the forum!! Great to hear that you (and the rest of us!) have made a conscious decision to lead a healthier life! Very liberating to know that you are in control!!
I agree with Kim. Try to bite the bullet and weigh yourself. I avoided the scales for far longer than you (around 4 years!!) and one morning in September this year I decided I had had enough of hiding from myself! All that number meant to me was a starting point ... It gave me something to measure my progress against ... The number itself really was irrelevant because I knew it wouldn't be there for much longer!! Imagine how fantastic you'll feel when you see that number start dropping ... There really is no greater motivation honestly!
Ashamed? Embarrassed? ... Of taking charge of your body and lifestyle??!! Not a chance ... Smile ... Be proud ... Stand tall ... Ths is the first day of the rest of your life
well done you!!! Well done all of us!! Xxxx