HI everyone
I've often 'lurked' and read people's updates and stories as inspiration, but now it is time to say hello and get accountable for MY goals.
I have some fairly involved medical conditions, and have just started weaning off a terribly restrictive medical diet. I still have more medical appointments before I can see my dietician again...and I am 'weaning' off the secondary medical diet myself, while still on the main medical diet.
It is really funny how a medical diet can change your brain - it has NOTHING to do with weightloss. In fact I lost 2 kilos only (and with a month off the diet, that 2 kgs is back!) It is all about 'safe' (Smiths plain salted crisps) and 'going to make me sick' (baby spinach - ironic no?!). The fear of being ill keeps you on it, but I have tentatively added back the baby spinach and didn't get sick, so YAY.
In fact, I think FEAR is my biggest motivator over my life to do anything regarding diet. So when it comes to weightloss, I have to either totally hate myself or have the fear of some occasion (like having to bear my midriff on stage - that was BIG fear!!) to motivate me.
I'm not sure now if it is fear that is making me say once again, that I need to lose some weight, or if it is a goal. I am a semi-professional dancer, and i have been out with injuries and illness for 3 years. Finally, I'm back...and about to enter a National comp in June. I NEED to work hard at it again! I've NEVER had a professional dress made before, or a personal choreographer and coach (always do it myself), so I really want to do it all justice. And that means I could lose a bit of weight...
The tricky part is that food is medical rather than traditional 'weight-loss' and weigh in and measurements are pretty non-true for me - my medical conditions can swell my belly to 8 months pregnant and add 3 kgs in 2 hours. It can last for days. Sometimes I despair that I am truely that fat. So I think my 'accountability' has to be measured in moderate food intake. Exercise is a given when I'm in training anyway.
I think my posts will be full of angst about why my weight is fluctuating! But over time, I'll hope to definitely see reduction. That dress is seriously little (for me anyway - others wear less, but I'm not blessed with that type of body), and seriously sexy!!
So at the moment the scales say I am 64kg. This morning it was 61.7kg. You get the picture, lol!