Hey Foodie4life welcome to the Forum!
This Forum is a great place to get support and encouragement as you discover how to put together a healthy lifestyle that works for you.
Sounds like your life is ready for a change - and change is the name of the game.
One of the things that I recommend for people to do is list all the benefits that weight loss would bring (no matter how large or trivial). Once you have made that list, then list ALL of the benefits that remaining the some has (there are benefits - if there wasn't any pay off you would have stopped long ago). Once you've done that then think deeply about those lists. This is the reality check...this is where you get real with yourself. When the benefits of weight loss hits home you can really begin. Turn that WISH into a WANT and then turn it that want into a MUST. When you have that then change in your life will be achieved successfully.
Weight loss is a journey...a journey of the mind. Build all changes into your life slowly but surely. By making small changes at first, you will be able to build and build on each success.
I have some before and after pictures of me in the aptly named "Before, During and After Photos" section. Hopefully they can inspire and provoke the desire for real change in your life. In a lot of my posts you will read me harping on about "a better future" after weight loss...that is because it is really true. As much as you imagine are the benefits of losing weight are - the real reality is it is even better than you could possible ever imagined it!
Looking forward to seeing your better future unfold before you!