This is my first time at a forum of this type, I am hoping that if I do things differently THIS time around I may have more success.
I have struggled with my weight all of my life, as have my siblings. I know it is easy to do, but I think some responsibility lies with our parents. They are in there 60's now, divorced, and both overweight, maybe obese, have multiple health probs, hypertension, diabetes, cardio vascular, emphysemia, the list goes on. They both love and live for takeaway, and junk, and physical activity would just about kill them. I can't help but think their habits have also rubbed off on us. I was also teased or put down by my father for being fat ( who is himself, a picture of extreme unhealth). I had to leave school at 14 as by this time I had attended 22 different schools due to my fathers gypsy lifestyle. I do think all of these factors did have some effect on how we turned out. I think I turned to food to replace the lack of friends due to us moving all of the time. I also remember how frightened, embarrassed, and horrified I was on my first day at a new school, smack bang in the middle of the year, where everyone had already paired off and made friends, and I was the odd one out. This affected me to the max once I started high school as peer acceptance etc was soooo important at that age. I do hate my father for that, and funnily enough that may also be contributing to my probs today. But it is time to take responsibility for my own life and well being. I have dieted myself stupid over the years with only short term success.
I had an injury 10 years ago which made exercising difficult for me.I had gastric staples done about 20 years ago. It was successful in that I lost weight, but the side effects were not worth it. Agonising pain upon eating anything, and then gallstones. The weight loss side of it was successful- lost 40 kgs- but only kept it off for 10 years. The reason for the loss was the pain of eating was too great therefore I didn't. Now that I am a little bit wiser, I can see that nothing was learnt in this, no training on healthier eating, no knowledge of healthier lifestyle, just forced to lose due to the pain of eating.
This time last year I became very very motivated to lose weight. For 8 weeks I stuck to 1200 calories per day, upped my protein, lowered my carbs, did cardio 40 mins 5-6 days a week, and weight training everyday, alternating upper and lower body. Was doing ok with a 8 kg loss in 8 weeks, then my back said NO it a huge way. Several specialists and surgeons later I am told a have quite severe lower back problems ( genetics and lifestyle induced ), during the months it took to get a diagonosis I put 4 of those kilos back on due to inactivity and being almost bedridden I relied on my other half to take care of meals which usually was take out roast chicken, pasta salad, potato salad etc, as my partner pretty much can't boil water. To avoid the surgery suggested to me I have performed intense physio which has so far got me to here.
My intentions were good, cut my calories to 1500 per day as this amount would hopefully be sustainable over the long haul, and walk for about an hour a day. The calorie part was not a problem, but the walking was difficult in that I would set aside a time when I would go, then the phone would ring, or someone would drop in, or it would rain etc etc etc. So I was averaging 1 or 2 walks per week which is probably a waste of time for weight loss. My partner and I discussed it, and even though we could least afford it , a treadmill was the answer. I can tell you it has made a huge difference and I have absolutely no excuse now. Rain, hail or shine, daylight or darkness, I can, and do, walk every day. Last week I clocked up 28kms, which in the past would have taken me a couple of months to get around to. Of course I have to be careful, I have gel padded shoes and a soft running deck on the treadie, and unlike in the past I stop the second I feel any pain. Funny thing is, the walking has been great for my back and I have actually had some pain free days
My reasons for losing weight are wide and varied, I want to be healthier of course and I think as you get older you tend to listen more and realise you can't keep going at this rate without consequences. I would love to go into somewhere like just jeans etc and buy off their rack, I would love more eneregy. My partner is extremely fit and stunning to look at, and I know it is not even a thought with us, but I know people look at us as a couple- and think - short and fat with fit and gorgeous what an odd couple, or what does she have ... this has caused some jealousy on my part, I think it is a natural thing as when you are obese you usually have low self esteem and confidence. My partner is aware of this and goes to all lengths to reassure me, and if anyone openly acts this way, it is the biggest turn off as far as my partner is concerned and that person does not get the time of day, just a cold shoulder.
So vanity is playing a part in this, but most of all I think my parents health situation has really brought it home to me.
I am 85 kgs now and want to lose 20kgs overall. My plan is to break it into 5kg segments and have a mini celebration for each 5kg
triumph, hopefully that will motivate me for the next 5kg. I look forward to reading all of the diet tips, exercise tips, and your personal journeys.
Thank you - Aquarian
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