I joined a little while ago, but I guess haven't had the courage to admit to people that I have a weight problem. Though I know everyone is in the same boat here. Society has left me not wanting to jump up and down and say, "Yes i'm fat". As per anything the first step is admitting it. Well I had done that a while ago. Now I want to actually do something about it.
I've gone from being skinny and fit, to discovering smoking and junk food, back to losing a lot of weight due to an operation. Then as what seems a vicious cycle putting it back on, losing it, putting it back on. Etc then…
(Now for the sob story).
7 months ago I was at a weight I was happy with, happy with life, pregnant and nothing was bringing me down from cloud 9. That is, nothing except the doctor who informed me I was once again having another ecoptic pregnancy. Now for the people who know what this is like, you know the whirlwind of emotions that comes with this. For the people who don't it is like this:
Wake up, cry, eat, sleep, cry, wake up, eat, sleep and cry.
Depression and eating seem to go hand in hand. So no surprise I am now at 91kgs and want to get to at least 75kgs.
I'm going to America in November to meet some great people I have meet (thanks myspace) and have decided I want to be near to my goal weight when I leave. (Is that even possible???) The idea of wanting to lose weight isn't a problem at all. It's the motivation that I lack, and badly!
I did a few days on the treadmill.. Read that I was only losing 200 cals and thought, "damn is that really enough?" Didn’t seem worth the effort. So jumped on the net and found this site. Read it and decided to join in on the forum and see if I can pick up some ideas and help along the way. Then hope to help others on the same journey I am facing.
So here I am 30, happily single, and over weight!! Ready to take the first steps to what it takes to be the weight I wish to be and to keep it off!!