Hi isolde and welcome to the forum! You may find that it helps to reframe your thinking about this as not a punishment or chore, but an opportunity to become a healthier you for life - and who wouldn't want that!!
35kg lost. (November 2005 - October 2006)
15kg gained again (as at October 2010).
Back to the drawing board - Let's do this thing!
"You can't change the winds, but you can change the sails"
"Reach out and take control of what lands in your lap"