Hi all, thank you so much for your warm welcome!!
Any help or suggestions would be great.
It is such a personal and embarrasing problem. I do competitive taekwondo, which means weight divisions and weigh ins. Which is possibly the most stressful thing I can think of, getting on the scales in front of people!! And if I'm not the right weight, being disqualified. The worst bit is how much my weight alters, one month I might be scrapping in at the 51-55kg div, but the next month I'm stressed just making the 55-59kg div. This plus the fact that I am quite short, and most of the other girls are tall and thin makes me panic.
I had a comp this weekend just gone, and I knew I needed to watch my weight, and yet the day of the weigh in, just a few hours before getting on the scales, i ate a whole loaf of white bread. Of course then I was in the bathroom trying to bring it up and berating myself. Ended up going to the gym and the sauna.
I have no idea how to stop myself, I have tried food diaries, tried distracting myself, giving myself goals, preplanning food, keeping busy, but it doesn't stop me. It is really starting to freak me out, to the point where I don't even have to put my hand near my mouth to make the food come out. I have also gone to dietiations and phychiatrists etc.
The problem is I understand the negative thought pattern, and I know how to eat healithy, I just can't stick to it.
Sorry for such a long post.