Hi, I'm new. To the forum at least, and not to the whole "trying to lose weight" side of things.
I've been lurking around the forum since around the beginning of the year, and have finally had the guts to sign up and introduce myself.
Basically my quick back story is that at the beginning of 2005 I made a decision to lose weight and did quite well, losing around 30 kg pretty rapidly. But since then, I've been massively stuck around the 80kg mark and have countlessly said to myself that "I'm starting again tomorrow, and am going to do it this time". Only to dissappoint myself every. single. time.
I'm sick of the cycle of getting back on the wagon and then majorly falling off again, usually a couple weeks later and thus regaining any weight I manage to lose. I've also turned into somewhat of a binge eater and right now as I type I've pretty much been on a four day "bender" and feel absolutely sick to my stomache and fit to burst.
I've also tried to do this whole weightloss thing by myself too. None of my friends and family really know the struggle I've had with myself over the last few years and the issues I've had surrounding food, because I'm so sensitive about being overweight and people's reactions to me. So basically that's why I've signed up here, because at least it's a step in opening up myself to others and knowing that I'm surrounding myself with people with common goals and similar struggles. I've always been really independent and wanting to do things for myself, but right now I really have to admit that maybe I can't do this completely alone, and I'm really hoping that just posting this here is the first step in the right direction.
As I said at the beginning, I initially lost weight in 2005, and now that it's 2007 I kind of want by the end of the year to lose the final 15kg that I'm going for. I really want to kind of be able to close the book on the struggle of the past 3 years, and then get on with my life of being happier and healthier and maintaining a healthy weight.
I don't know how often I'll post around here, because I'm still pretty shy and reserved about things, but I feel better knowing that I've put myself out there and admitted to some stuff out loud (well, in typed format anyway). I really hope this provides me with the motivation I need to finally take control of things once and for all, because at the moment it's too stressful for me to keep doing what I'm doing instead of trying to change myself for the better. Thanks for listening!