Welcome to the forum nouveau! Grief is a very personal process and we all deal with it differently, and sometimes not so constructively! You have done well to recognise this fact though. With a bit of hard work, I'm sure you can lose it again.
35kg lost. (November 2005 - October 2006)
15kg gained again (as at October 2010).
Back to the drawing board - Let's do this thing!
"You can't change the winds, but you can change the sails"
"Reach out and take control of what lands in your lap"