Ally, I can relate exactly with how you feel. as a teenager I was slim, I did get alot of male attention, not always positive. Ie from my friends boyfriends and brothers.
I now believe I associate the feeling of attention with the guilt that I had back then. And weight protects me from that.
What I know now is that, is a irrational fear. I am in control of my emotions as an adult and that fear is one of a child, which I no longer am.
This gives me the strength to continue on my weight loss journey of becoming a slimmer healthier person, I can control my emotions and say no to unwanted advances if required.
It comes down to trusting and loving yourself and not believing that your life is soley influenced by others. I have the final say, in my decisions and I know It wont always be easy ,but i can push through that irrational fear of guilt and get on with living a healthy happy life.
And wear those great clothes that i cant wait to buy
and feel good about it.