MAN i just wrote this HUGE post and then accidently pressed the wrong button and got rid of it all!!
so i will just try and condense it
well i haven't been that good lately - been eating out too much, not eating very well, drinking coke when we go out, now we have lots of fizzy drink in the fridge which isn't exactly helping
and i think i've put on a bit of weight
gonna try and not stress about it too much cos weigh-in day isn't until sunday. but i don't wanna gain!! and i've only been to the gym once - so much for that
the ball is in 5 days and although i'm motivated - i'm not doing anything about it! i've been eating unhealthily when going out, drinking coke, and just eating too much junk in general. doesn't help when there's lots of it in the house
i think i might be sabotaging but i have no idea why - i thought i'd gotten over it! seems like any thought of getting into the 50's and it flips a switch - eating crappily and lots. thing is, i don't even feel great after all the crappy eating. so i don't know why i'm even doing it! i don't wanna put on any more weight
i don't know what to do