I want to be the best person i can be. For Me
I have been sitting here trying to figure out what to write, How to start off. So i thought i would just jump straight into it.
Im 25 and living in melbourne. I am here because i am wanting to improve my life and my health.
It Feels like i was only Skinny for one day.
Back in Jan 2007 i went from 118kg to 71kg
I did it by Hard work, Will Power, Time Management . I had the drive about me. I had a thirst to achieve. I felt like Xena the Warrior Princess. I wanted my mind, body and spirit to feel powerful. Health Eatting and exercise
In the last 12 to 18 months i have gain all my weight back. I am currently 122.5kgs. i have lost the spark, i have lost that Glow.
So as i reflect back, it truely only feels that i was skinny, and in a health mindset for one day. (it seems so long ago)
From every negative there is always a positive.
The reason for my weight gain, is because i had my heart broken.
I was in a point in my life, where i felt confident, sexy and felt great about Being ME. I finally loved me.
Then i got my heart broken. I was Betrayed.
I let my emotions rule my life, I took the betrayal so personal, I felt like i was ugly, i didnt feel good enough. I did not speak to anyone about my heart break for a long time. I kept it in, I turned to food.
In the last 18months i have gain 50kilos
I am not proud of this, However it has happen and I am going to Change it.
Enough IS Enough. I am so stubborn, pig headed and i match up to my star sign, Taurus. hehehehe - I need to kick my own Butt and get real about me.
The positive things i have learnt from this experience is that i am now aware that in life - sh*t will Happen. The unexpected will Happen.
I have learnt the importance of keeping me fit and healthy.
Define Health ? Define Beauty ?
The society we all live in, shapes peoples idea on what beauty is. The Mags and ultra thin models are perceieved as beautiful, and they have right to think so.
I guess what im trying to say is, we need to define our own beauty, Never compare our own beauty to any one else,
You are not them, you are you and beauty lies within you, just need to put your best foot forward, believe in yourself, and find that beautiful place within you.
A very special person said to me, that they love me no matter what. 18months ago, when they seen me get off the plain, walk down those steps and walk towards them, they seen that glow, they felt it. They said the glow was all around me. My mindset was confident, positive, This person said to me that when i got off the plain and walk towards them with the sun shining down upon me, They seen that glow. He said it was amazing and the happiest that he has ever seen me. I was confident, i looked great and i felt great within. It really did shine from the inside out.
This person, was my Dad. I caught a plain back home in 2006 visiting my family for my brothers 21st birthday, I hadnt seen my parents for 6months, then in November2006 i returned back home to a small country town, where my mum and dad were waiting for me. My dad seen me get off the plain and he seen and felt that glow straight away.
My mum was funny,(she is so cute) she was saying to dad, where is she? i cant see her!!!! My dad said, she is right there, right in front of you, walking towards us
After a second or two, mum spotted me.
This means so much to me, Because dad had told me what he saw in me that day, My folks have always been proud of me, My parents are truely my best friends. I have always been able to talk to them about ANY issue in Life. They have always loved and supported me.
By my dad bringing this to my attention, it makes me remember, how good i felt. I felt free. And he is right, I deserve the best.
We all deserve the best. . . .
We can do it, As a Wise person said to me. There is no such word as CAN'T
Its Mind over Matter
Think With Your heart.
First Goal - To lose 15kg + by end of May 2009
How can this be Achieve - Healthy Eatting - Exercise - Drinking Water - Keeping a journal.-
Starting weight 122.5 Not for much longer
My Action Plan . ...
Reduce the amounts of unhealthy food.
Eat More Fruit and Veg
Drink more water - Drink water with every meal.
Cut soft drink out of my Diet.
Think positive thoughts before i go to bed.
Plan Plan Plan
Every night before bed, Write in my diary what i plan to eat for the next day.
Plan to exercise -
Pack gym bag to take with me in the morning to work, so when i finish work i am organised to go to gym. Remember sweat towel, water bottle, ipod.
Just remember, the more I move the more fat i will lose.
Think, live, breath, become the new me.
Be Selfish and allow my time, do look after myself, make good choice for me.
Learn to love myself again
Unlock those paddlocks
I am responsible for everything that happens to me
I have the power to better me
Things we get us down ONLY if we give them permission too.
Set High goals.
Nothing is impossible, Everything is possible
Become your own bestfriend
Never let yourself suffer, ever again.
I dont have control over this world, however i have control over me.
Its ok to be scared, for im only protecting me, thank you
Be brave, and fight for whats yours.
You deserve it.
Never just settle in life.
Let go of the pains of the past.
Stop hurting/abusing your body
Believe, love and trust yourself
I was 70kgs 18months ago, its not out of reach
Believe Believe Believe
I invite you to share this exeripence.
I can do it.
I want to do it
I will do it.
Lets All do this together. . .
Are you in ? ? ?