I have come to the realisation that i am a ALL or NOTHING kinda Girl. I feel as tho the Will power switch as just come on. I feel powerful, I wil Achieve. Today i went to curves, i was running around work today, going WOOO HOOO im headed to curves after work. Girls just laughed and said, your so cute, that ur excited.
When it was time for me to finish, i raced out the back, grab my bag, and did a little dance and a little bum jijjle, sang a Song Yay getting the curve i derserve. . ..
I got the curves - I was pumped, i was like bring it on. spoke to the trainer, she asked me a set of questions, one that really stood out that she had asked me was -
What are Two reasons why you want To be healthy Now ? ? ?
i said - Because I Deserve IT !!!!!!
I deserve the best in life ( like all of us do) i want to be the best person i can be, FOR ME - its for a spiritugal growth.
I told her that, I use to be really scared in life. I use to depend on other people for my own self happiness. I use to Rely on others ALOT .
Through life experience i have grown to Apprciate the understand, that the only person i Need is ME - Im my own bestfriend, I need to start trusting myself - and to say to myself - Its ok - We will be ok - We will work through this - all these years i felt like i was alone, i now realise i have me - I never was alone - I will never be alone ever again - I can always count on ME , to pull me through. I will be ok, that witin it self - has taken me a long time to learn, and it is so comforting to know i will always have me
I dont feel Scared.
The Trainer Was like WOW ......
Yester day was great with eatting
Today was also a good eatting day. Feeling Fantastic.
Nameir - Thank you for ur support - i love that you read my post , and ill see you in May i will bRinging the Sexy back- Take care - much love
Alexandra - thank you for comenting on my post, im glad you like them, The post i wrote dolly, i meant it - i write from the heart, hopefully it will help her along the journey. Best of luck with ur goal - I cant wait to start showing pic once i have started losing - my first way in is 13 JAN
Milkyway - lovely to hear from you again - Thanks for ur on going support - I feel like something has changed in me - i dont feel like im the same person - my outlook to food is so different over night - i think the talk with my parents, have inspiried me sooooo much, i look up to them so much and them being my role models, it made me think real hard- I asked myself , What do i really want outter life, Who do i wanna be . .. . .
Thanks all - my weigh in 13 Jan - i was 122.5 cant wait til the 13-jan
xox NYNM xox