Today was great
I woke up at 6.30am (very tired after only 5 hours sleep), did a decent amount of study (not as much I wanted to, but I think I overshot the mark there), ate really well and... *drum roll* I WENT TO THE GYM!!!
That's like a HUGE achievement for me. I originally started walking to the supermarket (about a 15 minute moderate walk) and then when I got there I was like, you know what, I'm gonna go to the gym. I got to the gym - and then realised that I didn't take any proper clothes with me - I had on my trackies, runners, a boob-tube dress, a sexy bra and a jumper. I asked the gym if they had any shirts my size and I tried on the largest one they had - wouldn't fit over my boobs. So I just said, nah, I'm gonna exercise in what I've got on, it's cool. Meanwhile, it's about 6.30pm at the gym (peak time), and I look around and all my fears just kinda melted away. There were some women there that were skinny or average, but there were quite a number of women around my size and I didn't feel like I was being judged at all which is an absolute first for me. So I pulled up my jumper sleeves and hopped on the treadmill for about 20minutes, walking uphill most of the time. I didn't even have my MP3 player, but I felt really good
I stopped though because I got really hot and I didn't want to take off my jumper coz my bra was hanging out and it wouldn't have been pretty, but anyway. After I hopped off the treadmill I went in to have a look at a few of the classes going on (Aquarobics and Body Combat), Body Combat looks a little too full on for me right now, but the Aquarobics looked heaps fun! The next class is on Thursday and I'm so going! I know I'm gonna be heaps nervous going into class for the first time, but as soon as I get into it, I know I'll have conquered that fear that I'm being judged. AND while I was there - I made an appointment to learn how to use the weight machines (finally) on Monday AND an appointment to see my personal trainer on Tuesday
I'm so proud of myself I think I'm giddy! Lol!
Anyway, I'm a little worried about what I ate today, the points say that I didn't eat much, but I felt like I ate heaps and I haven't had any 'hunger pains' or anything all day, just been satisfied
Breakfast: 2 x wholemeal toast (sandwich slice), a banana, 1 tablespoon of manuka honey. 3.5 points.
Lunch: Tuna rice salad - 50g (uncooked) brown rice, 95g tin of tuna in springwater (drained), lettuce, corn, peas, capsicum, onion, tomato, celery, cucumber and a sauce of dijon mustard and white vinegar. Honestly it doesn't sound too appetising but I really enjoyed this and it's definitely on the menu again. 3.5 points.
Dinner: 100g (uncooked) chicken, 60g (dry) wholemeal pasta. Chicken was cooked with canned tomatoes, onion, capsicum, celery, eggplant, zucchini, mushies and some spray oil. 5 points. Now, for desert, I TRIED to make something tasty but healthy - I had light ricotta cheese and some blueberries mixed with equal. I've never had ricotta cheese before in my life and now I know exactly why - it was all gross and grainy and I did not like the texture one bit. The flavour overall was ok, could have used a bit more sweetness IMO, but it was the texture that threw me off and I only ate about 4 spoonfuls before I gave up trying to like it. So 1 point for that.
Snacks/Beverages: 1/2 apple, 2 x cups of tea (with milk and 1 sugar), 8 glasses of water, diet lemonade and diet red cordial - 2 points.
I don't know how many points exercise is (I can't find it in my books), so for every time I exercise I'll give myself 1 point
So overall today I only had 14 points - 10 below what my maximum should be
I don't know if this is good or bad, but given my history with eating disorders it could look bad - but I ate soo much! My lunch was HUGE, and so was my dinner - I was full full full all day long. Should I be trying to eat more? I'm really enjoying the food that I'm eating, and now that I've bought some equal my points are going to be less! Advise would be seriously welcome here!
Overall, I think I had a fantastic day, and I feel really super energetic!
I believe in myself.