Well after a crappy week of the flu, not eating well and completely losing my motivation I have lost 300g. A loss is a loss, even after a gain I suppose. I have found my motivation again though
And it's here:
I remember on the day feeling uncomfortable in the dress because my arms are showing. I did have a pashmina, but I couldn't wear it for our 'first dance'. I remember when I got all of our reception photos I was just disgusted - and the photos of our first dance were where I had my 'OMG, I didn't realise I was that BIG - I need to lose weight NOW' moment.
This is what I strive to achieve again:
This, as I've probably told you all before - was in 2005, when I was 16, after I had lost close to 20kg, and was in the low 70s. I remember feeling confident, happy, sexy even. I lose that weight using Weight Watchers and having little support.
Those are my motivations - me at my largest, and me at my smallest. I want to be smaller than my current smallest picture, but that doesn't matter because what I'm after is that feeling of confidence, happiness - not anxiety and shame.
So today I have found my motivation again, and I feel in control of myself again
Hopefully I'll have a nice big loss next week!