I agree - WE WILL GET THERE!
Don't stress too much about what you've eaten. Its all a learning curve right? Oh, and pleeeaaaaaasssseee don't make yourself throw up your food - I've been there, done that, and got the bad health to prove it! Even now, years later, it's difficult to break the self-destructive cycle.
I spoke to a friend of mine last night, who has been successful in his weight loss and fitness goals. He suggested that I set myself a schedule, and mini goals in the first few weeks. Like, make a goal to start eating 6 small meals a day - they might be foods that aren't that great for me, but if I get into the habit of doing that, then that's good. Then I should make a small goal to eat 1 healthy meal a day and so on. He said he also allowed himself 2 - 3 chances a week to deviate from 'the plan', meaning that he could go out and eat a meal that isn't necessarily healthy, or a proper portion. He also allows himself a couple of alcoholic drinks a week. Although, he's fairly far advanced!
I am embarking on reading Dr Phil's book 'Self Matters', which I think should be interesting. I really want to get to the root of my eating problems, why I self-sabotage and so on. I realised the other day that I have GAINED 10kg in the last few months, and that makes me seriously disappointed in myself. I can't believe I got 1/5th of the way to my goal! Oh well... we shall turn that around, won't we FFS??!?!?! YES WE CAN!!!
Hey, are you situated in Melbourne? It's been absolutely freeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzinnnnggg here today, didn't get above 12.9degrees here, and it was raining and windy all day. Sooo sucky
I've also been studying all day, and am just about get get back into it, despite my eyelids nearly crusting over my eyes in an attempt to stay closed! Lol :p
Today was a kinda sucky day eatingwise here too, it was:
blueberry and white choc scone (from Bakers Delight again)
4 chicken rissoles
4 medium potatoes
light sour cream
4 cups of tea with skim milk and fake sugar
big bowl of bulla vanilla ice cream with choc ice-magic
Oh well... lets do better tomorrow! To me, today was better than yesterday and a heck of a lot better than Monday!!! Tomorrow night we're having curried chicken with rice noodles and vegies for dinner becoz we're having guests come over. I will attempt to be eating healthy all day before that meal, and I'm going to put the ice-cream back into the outside freezer so that its not there when I want to eat it!
Anyway hun, I hope everything is going ok, and you're feeling better. Chat tomorrow!