I think we always place too high expectations on ourselves.
Sure, aim at the stars but don't be so disappointed if you don't reach them rather revel in how far you did come by setting those high goals. In my weight loss, I figured that I would be all done and dusted in thirty six weeks based on my first week's loss. I was only out by twenty four weeks!
It was the drive to compel me and helped me achieve goal in 60 weeks which isn't a bad result anyway you look at it.
During the challenge you have shifted a lot of weight...enjoy what you have achieved so far without resting on your laurels. Ok maybe you didn't get it off as quickly as you did in the past but remember in the past you put it back on. That is the great achievement you are making this time around...you are coming to grips with making it a permanent lifestyle! And that is ALL GOOD!
In the past I've read your threads with despair. Here is a guy who works harder than a dog at weight loss (heck of a lot harder than I ever did) - then stops, goes on holiday or the like and blows his weight back out. Then he comes in again and repeats it all. I admire your work ethic but I thought you were crazy...like the hamster in it's wheel...frantic with energy but not getting anywhere! A man of extremes!
But this time it is different, this time you are coming to grips with life after reaching goal. It is a harder road but it is the pathway to healthy lifestyle success.
This is what makes you a winner in my books...you are growing steady in this journey - and because of that; success will be yours.