I really dont know what the underlying emotion could be. I consider myself to be in a relatively normal state of mind
and everything seems to be going really well for me..... I saw my ex and his girlfriend recently and its the 1st time I never felt sick
have started seeing a new guy... and uni starts today which I am prepared for and as for family and friends there is no dilemma there as well....
I almost think its cause Im just plain old lazy and even when I thought I had had my light bulb moment and found this webpage as part of my hmmm how should I say it.... recovery program? I am just too lazy to keep that frame of mind. So then even though I would have fruit with me I will take the extra 5mins spend extra money and buy some chocolate or whatever and eat it all in one sitting.
I dont want to tell the people that I work with that Im trying to lose weight, because not only do they make a big deal about it and watch what you eat and want to know everything (in a bad way) I personally think its my problem and my business and I dont want to divulge all.
Im going to kickstart again from today (Monday) and I will weigh myself later to update my tickergraph. I will do a week of best behaviour eating and exercising, then I will relax a little and enjoy what will now become my indulgences not meals......
Thanks so much everyone for reading and offering me some advice... Im sure I will have another problem for you to solve in the coming weeks