I'll just start by saying this is the first timeI have done this since I have started on the whole weight loss route and it has kind of left me a bit amused
Ok, yesterday was a bad, bad day for me, I dont know why but I was really on a downer. Things started out ok as they do and just when down from there.
Hubby and I went and visited our son, he was doing some weeding for my dad at his industrial sheds that he rents out as he wanted to earn some extra pocket money. As usual dad took him off to the bakery for lunch and junior thought he would have a chicken pie for a change. The little monkey is vegie phobic and as soon as he realised there were vegies in it that was the end of him eating his lunch. So while visiting up there I heard all about it, no one else likes chicken pies and would eat it and if there is something I cant stand its wasting food so yep I tucked in like a crazed women, pie demolished. Unfortunately that was only the start of things.
Later on for tea I just had a ham, cheese and pickled onion sandwich for tea and my snack sized crunchie bar for dessert, no worries. Then something inside just snapped, I downed 5 rows of Whittakers chocolate and half a 175gm packet of cheese and onion potato chips. not good so I thought I need to get out of the house and it was too dark/late to go walking by myself so I thought I would go to my sisters and drop of some money I owed her from last weeks shopping spree. Another mistake. She had a big slow cooker full of dahl that she had just made up so I had a huge bowl of that with 5 microwaved puppodums, then a single serve apple pie (light
) with chocolate fudge icecream and nuts and a large handful of bushwalkers/trail mix. Funny thing is I think I have been fighting this binge business for quite some time and things finally just came to a head and it is just not me. I normally have so much control, maybe thats part of the reason I just 'let go'.
Anyway, rightly or wrongly, I am not beating myself up for it or even regretting it as I have said to so many others in here, what is done is done, i'll get my head down and my butt up and get on with the job at hand, but I will eat lighter today.
On the upside, my sister handed me a pile of clothes, mainly pants, and a pair of boots and I went a layby a dress (a size 10) in Target yesterday that I love to bits, so I guess it wasnt all bad just a different experience for me.
Kudos to all who read my ramblings and I'm off to don the trackies and go for a hard walk that I really dont want to do but feel I must in order to undo some of yesterdays efforts.
Have a good one all