Good on you Ally
Ok, I guess its my turn then! Hello, my name is Grace. I have a problem with binge eating....sometimes I will sit down and eat an entire block of chocolate, a whole pack of biscuits, a whole bag of doritos, 5 peanut butter sandwiches, 2 litres of coke...all in one go...some times more. I have realised that I am in an 'all or nothing' mentallity...like, if I slip it, bugger it, I may as well pig out, and Ill 'start again tomorrow' GOD I think I have said those three words a hundred times, easily....Ill eat until my belly hurts and I dont want to move, just keep eating....I think that it is like a punishment .....food is a punishment for having something 'bad' like If I have a 'treat' (excuse for cr*p!) then Ill stuff myself sick with everything I can find (and go buy it at the milkbar if I dont have any! Very embarrassed of the knowing smile the man behind the counter gives me when I buy ANOTHER family block of chocolate, pack of chips and golden gaytime!
) I start telling myself that I am never going to be thin, Im just a loser, why do I bother starting, Im only going to fail....I know this is setting me up for failure, all this negative self talk. SO, I am starting over too. FOR THE LAST TIME< I WILL SAY I AM STARTING OVER TOMORROW!! I am going to challenge the urge to binge, sit down and write out the way I am feeling, and WHY I want the food....I need to set a good example for my little man, and I want to be around for him for a long time yet! I am going to finish up with my celeb slim shakes and see how I go....and my new avon food diary has just turned up!
perfect timing! SO, Its a week for admissions
We CAN do this, together....I think sometimes we just get a little complacent....
Lets do it together