well its confession time, and time to admit i am not really doing so well... I am mad at myself, because i have done so well so far and if i had of kept myself on track i would well be on my way to being that yummy mummy i want to be.. But something has held me back.. not really sure what has happened. But i kinda got to a spot i could feel that i was losing weight, and noticing how different (healthier and more energenic) i was feeling and was like "yeah, i can do this".. then the negative things started, mostly i am terribly scared of the excess skin i have
Okay its silly, but i have ALOT of it for some one so small. my babies were both big and stretched it like there is no elasticity to it, and now when i wear clothes i have layers of fat hanging out the ends of my knickers (out the sides) i know TMI and not a great mental picture but i have to be honest if im going to get over this hurdle. i know its silly to think something like that is worse then being over weight, but its just my view of myself at the moment isnt what i hoped it would be.
Im not saying i thought id look like a babe or anything, never have never will, even being thin i always had a "pot" belly but it was small enough to hide, this just aint.
I am just frustrated i guess, that i have let myself slip, i mean i havent gained weight lately, still maintaining, but i have not gone to any effort aside from walking to do anything about it. I miss my bike, im pissed off casue robert forgot again today to get the tools i need to fix it from his dads, so its been 2 or 3 weeks without it! Which hasnt helped!
sorry i needed to vent, needed to let it out.