went to the city today (walked there and back)
fedlt great in my new clothes initially. feeling slim and glam..
started to feel heavy in my body (weird!!)
had a cappucino to share with partner.
he had fry up at local cafe. I didnt order anything cos i didnt want to eat the shite.
He ate fried eggs saussage and chips (greasy) Found myself eating some of his chips with mustard and half a piece of toast with 1 slice of saussage...
Felt so bad.. got really upset about it. started to get reall negative thoughts, felt really fat and huge. Thinking im so top heavy and fat stomach, couldnt get away from myself. Horrible feeling.
Once i got home feeling a bit better. still feeling not great. Reason being is that I still think im slim!! somewhere in my subconscious mind, im thin. but looked big in the windows and feeling hot and heavy.
Had to stay STOP to myself with these thoughts. Feel almost like PMS but no-where near that time of month.
Had a cry. got over it.
Drank more water. for tea had a egg sandwich with mustard.
cant imagine being even bigger than this before.
Tomorrow will have to do exercise. Drink more water.
get a better attitude. Today was horrible when it should have been nice.