bloody hell! i hate myself at the moment
just ate about 10 "favourites" chocs and 6 jely beans.
they are still in my house. the other day cut open the sealed packet. wish i had taken them in the other day to work .
today ate weeibix whe I got up (1300 hrs..
then had little chocolates at work (the horrible tasting ones that look like santa and christmas trees) and then had lollies
Then 1 ate 2 buscuits and cheese and cracker.
then i had my protein shake. I had good intentions today.
Walked on my break for 15 mins.
I tried to stop the binge by eating 2 pieces of bread with ricotta and chilli.
I now feel very ill.
Today i saw this girl i used to work with ages ago. she has gained weight but is still slimmer than me. She is so confident but she is so open about everything.
She is definately ED, tells everyone that the scales are 2 kg out. eating minimally. holding her stmach becuase she had laxatives last night.
For some strange reason it is triggering for me. Makes me feel fat in conparison to her. I know I shouldnt think that way.
I thought I looked ok with my recent weight loss but really I am still overweight and chubsy. I am still not petite like I somehow think i am.
It was borderline bingeing today.!!
Maybe not drinking enough water. And the stress.
Thinking of resorting to those *D* things. maybe half tomorrow, get on to the shakes diet like the rest of you.
cant believe you all are doing so well and for so long. if you can do it certainly I can.
OWH wingeing girl....