Thanks guys! Your kind words really make me feel much better
I never told any of my friends about the letter, it felt like I was admitting I was fat and I didn't want to bring any attention to my size. I had to keep it all in, until now. This forum has lifted a giant weight off my shoulders
Easter was definitely a test to my will power, but I had a little bit of a treat with everyone else so I didn't miss out, but I didn't eat the whole bag of chocolate - like I used to.
Yes, the sad thing is I just thought I was bigger than my friends. I wasn't really comfortable, and it was depressing shopping for clothes. I could never buy anything nice and my size was getting too tight, but I didn't think I was 'fat'. I thought I hid it well and that I didn't look that bad. The letter at my office really slapped me in the face, and I hate to admit that without it I may not have cleaned up my act and got healthy. It was just horrible, and I was only 18 years old, so it was horrible for me to think that anybody at my work thought that about me.
I now know it's not just about losing weight, for me anyway, it's about taking control of my eating habits and living a healthier lifestyle. I don't eat the whole bag of chocolate because a) I will put on weight again and b) it's not healthy to eat so much junk. I have a large family and their eating habits influenced the way I was eating myself.
I hope you had a safe and disciplined Easter - but a treat is fine, as long as it's not over indulging
Until next time...