Thanx MJ, I appreciate it.
I'm feeling okay today. I'm still down but I'm feeling slightly 'brighter'.
I just need to let certain things/feelings go! You see, I lost a baby a few months back (I was 12 weeks pregs) & my sister just recently discovered that she is pregnant with twins! She has 3 kids already & no offence, but her partner doesn't support her one bit & he doesn't care much to spend time with her & their kids, he'd rather be with his mates drinking or asleep
. When they found out they were expecting again, he hit the roof! Like, does he not realise that it takes two to get pregnant???
I mean, FFS! I just feel like, well if you clearly didn't want anymore kids, then you should have gone for the snip long ago or, did it occur to you to maybe...oh I dunno... USE CONTRACEPTION!!!????
Sorry to have a rant, he just gives me the irits!
(to put it nicely & uncensored!) Anyways, we (my sister & I) were at our kids school yesterday for a special ceremony & all these other mums were congratulating her on her pregnancy etc & although I am
happy for her, I couldn't help but feel the green-eyed monster rearing it's ugly head.
I think having my hubby living away from home doesn't help with my insecurities either. I'm trying to be a good mum to my children & keeping strong but at night, after I tuck the kids into bed, I just crumble. One positive to come out of this is I'm still exercising, as It makes me feel better. Also, usually I would reach for the comfort food, but lately I haven't felt like doing this, which is a bonus.
Sorry guys, I hate feeling sorry for myself as I know that there are less fortunate people out there in the world with real, major problems & I feel like I'm being silly feeling this way, I just need to get this all off my chest. Thanks for 'listening'. I just need to "harden the F up!"