I thought that I would post a little about where I have come from and why I am here- BEWARE- could be a long post ahead.
Rewind 9 yrs ago, I was 19 and had reached the highest weight that I had ever been, I was about 75kg. This was at uni, campus kilos I like to call them. Lost a lot of it in the last year of uni, by going to weight watchers, I think I got down to 62.5kg.
Starting work (teacher) and the lolly jar was never far away, the canteen always had something nice and for the first two years I was driving an hour to and from work. All of this, plus only a little exercise made me gain it back.
6 years ago, met a lovely man, lost the weight again, got down to 61kg, went to the only wedding that I have ever been to and still think that I looked great in the photo's.
Weight slowly crept back up to over 70kgs, but this time I was in for a an even bigger change in my lifestyle, I moved overseas for a year by myself to work. I took a year off on unpaid leave and packed up all of my belongings to teach in an international school in Korea of all places. I arrived there August 2006 and discovered that if you weren't a drinker or a partier, there wasn't a lot to do. SO I go serious-I had taken all my WW books with me as well as a Calorie King counter book that I picked up a few days before I left.
I knew that I would be back in Australia Xmas 06 so I worked my a*se off over there, writing down everything, reading blogs, going to the gym (free plus a 2 min walk from my apartment) and I lost all the weight and more, for the first time since Year 12, I got down to under 60kgs, I looked smokin! Came back for xmas so motivated to maintain that I went and asked at gyms about their casual rates-being on the Gold Coast I was up for $15 a session-nup I thought, I will walk everyday instead... this didn't happen.
I think I was about 61kg when I went back. I was so very lonely over there. Long distance relationships really stink sometimes. I was hanging out for my Mum to arrive Easter 07. When she was there, I was about 65kgs, still exercising a little but i has discovered 50c cornettos! WOO. I started eating anything that was cheap and nasty, like donuts in town, hot chocolates with cream and loads of other sweets.
I left Korea August 07 at about 68kgs.
As soon as I got back, I went back to work-at a place that I hated-and put on a few more.
I bought a block of land, partner and I built a house and started a new job at a place that I LOVE! Teaching a year level that I ADORE. There were a few wake=up call times in 2008, mainly going on camp with the class and seeing myself in photo's, reminiscing about how lovely I looked a few Christmas's ago and had a lot of self-doubt.
I struggled for months to start this, I really hated myself for letting myself go but I have let that go. It's all part of life, I come from such a tight-knit family that most of my eating was emotional, due to homesickness.
So here I am, I am rejuvinated, in my own home with the boy, with my own timetable to follow and in a job that respects what I do. 2009 is really looking up. I do still have some demons that come and visit me, and I try to deal with them as they occur. I'm not sure that I can get under 60kgs, it's really a magic number for me, I know that I look great under it, perfect weight for my height but my body really resists it. I had to work HARD to get there in Korea, with everything at my fingertips so this time will be interesting.
Another thing that I think caused me to put it back on overseas was lack of encouragement, the staff there didn't notice or make comment like my family would have, I had no one in my corner cheering me on... it really hurt.
Trying to stick to 1200-1400 calories per day, CK says 1440 but I know I can easily get under that. I think when I start exercising again (have an ankle injury that doesn't seem to be getting better) then I will up it to 1400-1500. We shall see. Happy with week one, thanks for reading.