So, I have been here before and never had much success. I just couldn't stay motivated. Well, my better half proposed to me on Boxing Day and we have set the wedding date for just over a year away - 26/2/2010. Now I have a reason to keep motivated, to lose the extra kilos that have been weighing me down since I finished school, to get a body that I am proud of. My mission is to be a fit, beautiful bride next year.
I don't have a specific weight loss goal in place yet. I'm around 70kg (and 160cm short). I have an awkward body so my shoulders/bust/arms can fit into smaller sizes, but my hips/butt/legs are more along the lines of a 14, and depending on what shop I'm in a 14 is sometimes even too small. Other times a 14 is too big but a 12 is far too small. i have what can be best described as a beer gut. I hate not being able to find anything (and I mean ANYTHING) that actually fits my whole body perfectly. When I graduated high school in 2003, I was about 54kg, meaning I have lumped on around 15kg since. People think that I have no reason to worry about my weight at 70kg, but after being small for most of my life, I feel such a difference carrying that extra weight, and I'm not comfortable with myself. I don't feel fit. I have a lot of cellulite, more than i feel as though i should have at 22 years old.
Last time I was on this forum, i lived in NSW. I used to wake up in the morning and have stress-outs trying to find something to wear, because I didn't feel like anything fitted or looked right. I have since come to terms with my body a little more, I realise that if I'm not going to do something about my weight, I can't complain about it - it's up to me to make the change, and whinging about it won't magically make the fat disappear. So I dress to suit my shape, I wear board shorts at the beach, I try to accentuate the good bits and hide the not so good bits.
I have started doing Body Balance at my gym on Tuesday nights (last night it was cancelled sadly but hopefully back this week). I feel awesome after it, and it's helping me get back into the swing of exercise. I am more active on weekends, sometimes playing a bit of cricket etc. I am still drinking a fair bit of alcohol but it's starting to make me feel sicker when I do so I'm looking at laying off it unless I really have an occassion to drink (like my sister's upcoming 21st). I am still eating a fair bit of takeaway, just not as much as I was. I have started taking ham and salad rolls for lunch at work instead of buying lunch from the cafe (which helps my waistline as well as my wallet). I figure every bit of money I could spend on takeaway or alcohol would be better put towards the wedding so I'm going to use that as an incentive aswell.
I know what I need to do, I just need to get off my lazy butt and do it. I am hoping being back here and putting down my feelings throughout it all and keeping track of it will help a lot more. I know that the people here are great motivators and it helps to go through this kind of thing with other people who are going through the same thing, even if the amount of weight I am looking to lose is a lot less than the amount someone else may be looking to lose.
I don't want to say that I want to lose the entire 15kg I have put on - my body shape has changed and although I have not gotten any taller (sadly!), 55kg today might look much funnier on me than it did when I was 17. So my first goal is to be below 65kg again, something which I haven't been for months and months. Following that, I'll go for 60. Then take it from there. I'm going to weigh myself but because I know that might not be a fair indication considering muscle etc, I'm going to also measure myself, and also guage things on how I feel, how I fit into my clothes, how much easier it is to walk from the train station to work and vice versa.
I want to be a gorgeous bride, I want to feel at my very best and that means being fit, and feeling beautiful. My fiance is also looking to get into shape, as he's let things go for a while aswell - he is still gorgeous to me but I know where he is coming from when he says that he's not happy with his body. I'm hoping that we can motivate each other to reach our goals
If you've read this far, you're a champion, I thank you and hope to cross paths with you all in my journey