Well, I'm back. After a considerable leave of absence I have returned. I actually came back here for the first time since mid August last night and read a few peoples threads, even made a comment on Sarahm's weekly weigh in thread, I couldn't resist she is doing fanstastic and was so supportive of me when I first came on here.
Well since mid July when I last posted here a lot has happened, I continued my weight loss and got down to 123.9kg by mid August (I recorded this in my weekly weigh in thread). After that though was when things went crazy. In mid August it was my birthday and we went on a long weekend family vacation to Mildura, we had a great time but it was the catalyst for me falling off the wagon. I got some really great comments from friends there that hadn't seen me for a while about how great I was looking and although you would think that would be motivation in itself it wasn't, it had the opposite effect. I actually got complacent, in my stupid head I thought well if I'm looking that good maybe I've done it. I continued to fool myself like this till mid September when I realised I hadn't done it, I was far from it. I got back on the scales on the 16th of September and had gone back up to 127.5kg, I had gained back 3.6kg, that was more than half of what I had lost. I was devastated but it was the kick up the butt that I needed. However I had learnt a couple of things. I needed support and couldn't do it on my own. I also had no idea about good and bad food choices or portion sizes. I had a big case of portion distortion, and I was able to convince myself anything was a good food choice. Then I had a light bulb moment, if I stopped buying all the junk food and put that money towards a weight watchers membership and the monthly fee that would keep me motivated, and it has worked.
I joined weight watchers on the very same day (16/09/09). I have been following the program for 8 and a 1/2 weeks now and feeling great, learning heaps from the articles etc on the website and from all the other girls and guys on the messageboards there. I have gone from 127.5kg to 121.1kg in 8 weeks. Along the way I've had some challenges and even a week when I had a gain but all up I have been very pleased with my progress. This week I have been doing particularly well I have stuck to my points each day and exercised everday with a rest day on Friday. I really am in the right frame of mind for this and I really am doing it this time. I don't think I really lost my frame of mind when I lost the plot in August, I just think my mind had to catch up to my body and it started playing tricks on me and it nearly won, but I have put it behind me now and learned the lessons I think I needed to from my experience and to be honest if I hadn't had the gain and learnt those lessons then I would probably still be gaining weight and off the wagon.
I will from now on be continuing my journal on here and my weekly weigh in thread that I will update on Wednesday when I weigh in. Any and all support, comments and advice are greatly accepted and appreciated and I look forward to getting reacquainted with a few people on here and meeting some new ones as I continue along my journey.
FunStopperPerseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did