Ok... so I thought I'd better have a journal on here too.
As the title says, I consider myself a fat-chick. I've been overweight my entire adult life (and a great deal of my childhood!).
According to the BMI, I am close to 50kgs overweight but I'd ultimately like to lose 30-40kgs.
I started the CS program on the 28th of March, 2009. I had lost a couple of kgs on my own but before that I weighed in at 121kgs. I was 119.6kgs when I started the CS program and I'm now 107.1kg. I'm happy with my progress though the last month or so has been slow-going. I've had a few things happen with my family so that has made it hard to really make the most of the diet. I'm still plugging away at it though.
I've lost weight before on Weight Watchers back in 2001. It was a long, hard slog. After an entire year I'd lost 17kgs and still hadn't gone down a dress size! It was very frustrating! I did get heaps of compliments and I felt good but it was very frustrating that I'd worked so hard and still wasn't getting the results I wanted. I'd gotten down to 96kgs. I don't think it was long before I went back over the 100kg mark once I stopped going to WW (I started working FT and just didn't have the time or the inclination to follow the program).
I've since had two children and both of them were born by caesarean section. I had my daughter in 2005. I only put 10kgs on in the pregnancy but I put on more weight while breast-feeding. Give a person with a bad relationship with food, severe hunger, and it's a recipe for disaster! Anyone that says the weight drops off whilst breast feeding is a fibber! I joined the gym when my daughter was a year or so of age but I suffered from bad headaches (turns out it was hypertension) so I didn't really make the most of it. We struggled with money and then moved towns so no more gym for me! In 2007 I fell pregnant with my son. Again I didn't put on much weight during the pregnancy but I still got to 120kgs by 41 weeks of pregnancy. I instantly lost 10kgs once I had him (he was an almost 9lb baby) but, again, I got SO hungry whilst breast feeding. All I wanted to do was eat! I also suffered from PND and got into a vicious cycle with lack of sleep, a bad state of mind and bad choices with food. Needless to say, my body has taken a beating! Obesity is also in the blood with grandfather, my late grandmother, my Mum and my sister all overweight. My mother was my main role-model when growing up so my relationship with food probably didn't get a great introduction!
Back in March this year, my marriage suffered a bit of a blow when my hubby admitted to me that he wasn't happy with my size. When he first broached the subject, I took it all the wrong way. I honestly felt like he'd given me an ultimatum - lose weight, or lose me. I was heartbroken. I told him I'd always thought he was better than that - that the superficial stuff was so beneath him. Many angry words were exchanged and I really thought he'd had enough of me and wanted out of the marriage.
Thankfully that wasn't the case at all. Yes, he wanted me to lose weight but it was more than just my appearance. He thought I was happy to coast along the way I was (little did he know I'd already started to lose weight on my own). He said he loves me but he wanted me to want to get healthy. It was after this rough couple of weeks that i decided to really try and do something to help myself. We live in a small town but we have a Priceline so I went into town and bought myself a Celebrity Slim starter pack. I have to admit that the first couple of weeks were done with me thinking; "Well if he wants me to lose weight, I will, then I'll be too hot for HIM! HA!" – but over time my hubby has shown me a great deal of support and has encouraged me every step of the way. Our marriage is stronger than ever and I no longer feel like he loathes me. I don’t think he could have broached the subject of my weight in a ‘nice’ way – I think I would have flipped out no matter how he tried to tell me. He was just so concerned about me and he worried that I’d just keep getting bigger and bigger and be miserable because of it. I had gotten myself into such a rut! So I’m glad he had the strength to say something and pull me out of it.
So, here I am... 14 weeks into the program. I’ve lost 13.9kg so far and have no plans to stop any time soon. I want to lose 30kgs by Christmas. I know it’s a big ask of myself but I think it would be an awesome Christmas present to be lighter than I’ve been since I started Uni back in 1997.
So that’s me... I could rabbit on for ages. I can see that this forum has a great deal of support which is wonderful. Hopefully I can help to encourage and support others aswell.
Thanks for reading!
DebbieStart Date: 28 Mar 09What I want to achieve:
1st Goal - 10kgs
(end of May) - Reward: Wii Fit DONE
2nd Goal - 12.1kg
(June 11 - DH's Birthday) - Reward: Reward enough in itself! DONE
3rd Goal - 15kgs
(Aug 3 - DS's Birthday) - Reward: My Fitness Coach (Wii Fit) DONE
4th Goal - 20kgs
(Mid-October for a wedding) - Reward: New clothes!
5th Goal - 30kgs
(Christmas) - Reward: a digi-cam? Not sure.